Work progress:
To feel, thinking, doing better with myself, i painted my paintings with in a directions that I feel better when painting at the painting. So when within my workprocess rotation a further Workprocess level starts, i get better thoughts/ feelings, the paintings programs me becoming better, supporting growth.
A lot of times i catch myself having innerdialog which could be better, which can be deduct looking at the ground painting paintings laying at the floor. I catch myself, switching, upgrading having good thoughts. When painting with painting at the easel/ with a easel like structure im having good thoughts. For having a optimal work process walk a lot with nature alone, going hiking, cycling. Since this year i do my walks with nature with nordic walking sticks. I minimum do 10.000 to 13000 steps. I avoid people, the bodylanguage movement ( active/ passive, top/ bottom, she wants me/ he encouraging her/ pretending being blind/ couples looking for a third/ women to old/ / mediocre/ not attractive/ too young/ plain narcissisism/ gay/ bi cruiser/ young girls below 8,5/ people annoying with ther believes/ etc) takes up too much from my energy, and inner peace. So I like listening to useful things, walking alone, enjoying the green/ brown/ grey/ blue, watching animals. The absence of adult females minimum face 8,5/ 9s / 10s works with in my favour, helping me work focused. Knowing that i support, encourage, empower with art the flirting, thotery, the female hypergamy, a decadent/ lgbtq tolerance, the sexual ( life ) energy within/ between people. Increasing the peace. I although swim a lot in lakes, channels, public baths ( openair/ swimmhall), & watch/ hug/ cuddle animals like guineapigs/ donkeys/ pigs/ goats/ cats/ straydogs.
Work process:
I watch what i fap too. Which fantasy/ stimulation comes from which trigger/ Kink/ color/ the form/ the sound of word, interior element, work process? How does the fap ( selfrelieve/ mastrubation ( for lack of a better ‚ pc/ family friendly) word, it self triggers me. Position, hand, myself, the abstraction/ redirecting of thoughts. What/ which scenes? What suggests the woman at the photo, the photo arrangement, the design the photo is, etc, etc, etc, influencing my psyche. If that ritual is the first in after I wake up, how does that will influence my color choice later that day when painting? What kind of narrative am i giving to my art, into world at that level? How is my view deducting my work with perspective on how my abstract paintings influenced by me watching myself? Part of process, is although watching what are the little everyday rituals who influenced me in the past. The little logo with in my Shower, when wash myself? How clever is my subconscious protecting me from the things i wanted with in the past, which in retrospective didn’t happened? How did my paintings/ my work process is reflecting that? Or is my art already the digestion from that thought process?
How did my concious strategic decision circa 10 years ago to analyze during the faping process the picture themselfs influenced my art/ my life, my workprocess?
How does the interior, the architecture, the colors/ texture/ the everyday weather influenced my fap relief, which influcened my workprocess? How does everyday street, city, village, town, cars, people, children, animals ( cats/ dogs/ birds ), planes, hot air balloons, voices/ sounds/ noises, did influenced my work process, due I work with sound reducing headphones. How can my art become better?
Work process:
Since i started saying less, I started understanding better the connections between color, composition, words, priming, pre-priming, sounds, feelings, contexts, social dynamics. My process includes who thoughts i have, are connected, correspond with other people/ the world, via micro impressions/ expressions around the eyes/ with in the face, movement, breathing, the pheromones/ sweat/ the way our body’s are smelling different with the a different thought, with bodylanguage. My work process does include how people are influencing me? Are there intentions/ results from there action kind minded? How does thirds are influencing me, with suggesting me good solutions which help me where I could optimize myself?
Iam painting my paintings from all 6 sides is that I realised around 2009, that is efficient painting although the backsides. Color/ word / form/ knowledge a everday. Reflection: Emotions, color, thought? A thought word can change the reality live. I listen how my body reacts thinking about color/ a form/ both?
